Computers are pains in the ass. So much faulty software. I feel like reformatting and starting again...and to think I just started Win XP today. Sucks, eh?

Yep. I have nothing new to say. I started thinking about writing again, I mean I am going to start writing again and the same fear of futility that I've told yall about before came back at this show I went to tonight - Rainer Maria and Mates of States (Mates of States rocked!). I just feel like I can't possibly compete with all the other people in the world who try so much harder at being brilliant. Not that I am not brilliant, I am, I guess I am just scared that no one will realize it. And I guess that should answer my question, if I want people to realize my brilliance, if I want to write and be something with it, then I have to write, hence not so futile. I am sure that this weekend I will have plenty of time to write, and fix my computer. It is really late and I have to be up rather early tommorow morning. What do you guys think of havnig a "Ask Avi" feature? Like people send in questions and I will answer them online - responses garunteed. I think I am going to test that out for a month or so, of course, I will have to write the code. I actually have a lot of coding to do.

With The Onion as my new source of news (as the new york times is only available at Walgreens here in Madison and I don't like drinking coffee and smoking ciggerettes (my morning routine) near the computer) I've learned to look at the "news" somewhat comically. But then I picked up Michael Moore's book"Stupid White Men ...and Other Sorry Excuses for the State of the Nation" and just could not laugh at how crazy a country we live in. Everyone should read that book. But get ready to feel very lost and very afraid. Besides that advice, I'd rather not talk about the subject, I don't know how to fix the world, I just want to make people happy in it.

Fuck I forgot how hard writing posts is...this one seems to be missing the zing of some of the other posts. Does anyone go back and read past posts? You guys should, some of them are gerat. Well everyone tommorow is the weekend. My plans: A bottle of Merlot courtesy of Adam and some movies. I will probably get laid (many times over) and write the most brilliant work of fiction ever also, all while hitting on the hot chick at whichever valentines themed party I go to. Valentines, what a shame. Any holiday that makes 19 yr olds so terrirfied of their single status that they would attend a singles mixer where they fill out the names of their crushes on a card and then get paired up with that person should be obolished out of sheer pitty for these people. Pfft. The world is so fucked up that I can't even feel it anymore. Nothing makes sense and nothing makes you want to make sense of anything.

The Winter Sun

hangs in the cold breeze

above the snowy trees

and the icy seas.

No one expects warmth

but light it does provide

and isn't it so nice

that despite all the ice

the winter sun still shines bright