I don't suppose that anyone reading this site knows anything about database structure? See I am rethinking mine and well, oh fuck this, I know the answer, restructuring is a good idea its just going to mean more work for non obvious benefits. I think programming is the only field where the saying "if it isnt broken, don't fix it" isn't true.

Yeh, the last post, hmm..well, I feel better. I am still sorta sad - I missed work the next day and they weren't happy, I think I am getting fired, whatever, I dont give a shit. But in general, I feel much better, at least, I am not really focusing on those things yet, I think I need to be ready to have that discussion with myself. My point is, the things still scare me, and until I deal with those issues they will, but I can forget about those things for sometime now, until im reminded again, and hopefully, eventually, I will deal with them.

My parents fucking suck ass. Thats the end of that.

Everytime I go to visit my brother in boston I always get in a pissy mood and say "thats the last time I come here." Sadly, he graduated today and that was the last time I will go there. It was possibly the two weirdest days of my life and I don't want to comment any further. That is it and goodnight.